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<\/p>\nUnfortunately, most people only change after they have experienced a significant amount of uncomfortableness or shall I say pain.\u00a0 I am not sure nor do I spend time in analysis wondering why someone\u2019s character requires pain to get them willing to change.<\/p>\n
October of 2016, I posted my first Instagram picture.\u00a0 This was a big deal for me, as I didn\u2019t even have a Facebook page at the time.\u00a0 However, due to an awareness that the day job which had been going strong for 15 years wasn\u2019t working anymore, I knew a change had to happen.<\/p>\n
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This above picture was on my way to work one morning. I pondered at the enormous amount of traffic. I knew this was one of the many reasons I wanted to become my own boss.\u00a0 How precious is your time? I thought.\u00a0 I have always just \u201csqueezed\u201d everything and everyone into my day, and felt somewhat good at it. That alone was a problem.\u00a0 Sometimes we become so accustomed to our routine and habits we don\u2019t realize there is an easier, healthier way to do things.<\/p>\n
I have 3 daughters from my first marriage, 2 step sons from my second.\u00a0 Still married to husband #2.\u00a0 I work a full-time job, I work out 4-6 times a week for an hour a day, I started back to school online at Arizona University (I do 1 class at a time, and do not take every semester, I take this one with ease) and currently have 12 women I mentor and coach who have recovered from alcoholism and addiction.\u00a0 I have been running this schedule minus the schooling & the exercising (1 year, and 3 years respectively) for over 10 years.\u00a0 Quite frankly, I just make it fucking happen.<\/p>\n
However, amidst all of that I realized after having a huge awakening in regards to my other 40 hours a week, my passion wasn\u2019t in bill collecting.\u00a0 This is the industry I have been in for over 20 years.\u00a0 But what do I do with this kind of realization?\u00a0 I had no college education, I was 41 when the realization occurred, what do I do?\u00a0 Fuck.<\/p>\n
The question was extremely overwhelming, simply because I knew it was going to require a lot of work to become someone else.\u00a0 It was going to require being uncomfortable all the time with a learning curve in new areas I had no experience in.\u00a0 Such as Instagram and Facebook.\u00a0 I now understand, 3 years into this why it seems like people just \u201carrive\u201d one day and you know who they are, they seem rich and happy, they have it all.\u00a0 The reality is 99% of them had been busting their ass behind the scenes for years before they made it.\u00a0 They deserve every bit of success that has come their way.\u00a0 We didn\u2019t hear about the struggle and the strife as it was occurring, they were surviving.<\/p>\n
So, what was inside of them to make them grind daily?\u00a0 This is the deal breaker my friends.\u00a0 This is the key to forward progress.\u00a0 The gut instinct you never give up on that is telling you to keep going, that there is something bigger you are to do. \u00a0It\u2019s their why.<\/p>\n
The picture above is one of the many things I have used over the last 3 years to keep moving forward. I use reminders like this daily to remind me why I don\u2019t want to work a 8-5:30 anymore.\u00a0 But I gotta work for it, and I don\u2019t need to be dramatic and quit the job right away.\u00a0 Things like this are a reminder to not give in when all I want to do is sit down and watch a movie, to not become overwhelmed with parent guilt when I explain to my kids why I\u2019m going back to school, therefore study time might take away from our evening time.\u00a0 To wake up at 4 am so I can pray and turn everything over to my universe, praying for those people who I\u2019d love to tell to go to hell, but instead understand the universe operates in my favor when I respond with love vs. react with fear.<\/p>\n
What is your why?\u00a0 If you are anything like me, you have several.\u00a0 Today, for me, besides not feeling any passion at the day job, I am needing to be home with my kids.\u00a0 Especially my youngest \u2013 she is 10, and the nanny is no longer available.\u00a0 She has siblings at home after school, but no parent home with her to give her attention.\u00a0 Another is my mom and dad.\u00a0 Humble people, who live in a small town in Nebraska.\u00a0 They are 77, and not getting younger.\u00a0 I want to be able to provide the potential elderly care they will need to help provide comfort in their upcoming years.\u00a0 Financial for me personally, ironically isn\u2019t on the table, but the real why, the real thing that keeps me headed in the right direction is I am convinced I am supposed to help thousands, and be of service to my God on levels I cannot even comprehend right now.\u00a0 It\u2019s a calling, and I am not sure how it will manifest, but I am in preparation for it.\u00a0 Day in, Day out, commute after commute.\u00a0 Conversation after conversation.<\/p>\n
This isn\u2019t an easy goal.\u00a0 It\u2019s not for the faint of heart.\u00a0 I have cried more times in the last 3 years, so much it was comparable to when I got sober 17 years ago, and when I went through my divorce.\u00a0 You see, I realize today I am becoming an entrepreneur, and all the crying is the letting go of the old me.\u00a0 I embrace every tear, for I\u2019m getting cleansed.\u00a0 Always, remembering my why.<\/p>\n
Faith, patience, and hell of a lot of hard work my friend.<\/p>\n
Enjoy your journey, you only have one, you are worth it!<\/p>\n
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Susan Denee<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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